The  Light of my life died today, she was fat, grumbly ,snored, and farted ,hadn"t exercised a day in her life and had a face only a mother  could love .
 My english bulldog cali  passsed away this morning from temperature caused by a eye infection ,It was painless she just grumbled and flopped in my arms and then just slept.
five years ago we adopted her from a family whose children had developed alergies ,she was four and a half and full of attitude. I started training her and she was amazing she mastered over 100 commands of sign language and could be controlled from 30 feet away without a word she soon starred on broadway , mtv video clips, movies(both indie and major) and her biggest role the keeper of my sofa and filler of my heart with joy.

 Three months ago she started to lose commands, so she finished her last role on broadway and retired to the couch. The third of this month we took her and her boyfriend Diezel to Fire Island ,and she played in the surf like a puppy .she came home on the tenth and became sick shortly after . 

Im crying as i type, because Cali and later her adopted boyfirend Diezel(also bulldog ) were the two most loving unjudgemental beings on earth and i know they loved me and they knew every day i loved them . the vet is coming in 30 minutes to take her to cremation she is wrapped in her favorite back stage blanket and  piece of my heart goes with her .

Tags: goodbye baby
Current Location: sobbing

Well folks , the funniest thing happened last night, about 1 am my love and i are doing what comes natural and are realllly enjoying ourselves , when the buildings smoke alarm can be heard going off in the distance , so we stop ,dress rush outside to see where the fire is? nothing we check other floors nothing, we go to bed(now for sleep purposes only) two hours later same same , we rush out no alarm any more this happened four times before 7am when my lady staggered to the subway sans any remnants of sleep and having got almost but not quite to that all important moment . 
So i go back to bed and i am awakened by the alarm at 9 am this time i find the culprit it is our newly adopted cockatiel who seems at its last house learnt to mimic alarm bells. so a cute yellow birdis the culprit who ruined both great sex and any chance of sleep . It's funny now not so while it was happening

Tags: it's a birds life
Current Location: cooking cockatiel
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: rockin robin

June last year as i was lifting a wok with hot peanut oil off my stove in my uber small newyork studio i went into a full on grand mal seizure and the result was second and third degree burns from the waist(belly button actually) down
The one part of my 280 square foot studio that  i hated most, is actually what saved me, the kitchen is only 3ft 6inches from the cabinetry to the doorway to the hall as i convulsed i fell from the waist up into the hall and in convulsion twisted almost right angle from the waist around the door jam so my top half was protected by the wall,(the last time i ever complained about my match box kitchen) its,lilliputian dimensions saved my face and breasts from the hell the lower half of me went through.

well cut to today, the wounds are gradually healing and some are fading ,(not that i can ever wear shorts or short skirts again) And i get a moron of a debt collector telling me via phone at 8am i owe New York presbyterian burns unit thousands?wtf .
I had then, and continue to have full medical coverage, all i had was a $50 co pay for emergency and the rest was covered and $25 co pay each time for therapy  so i hang up but alas seven more calls.
i call aetna only after ten minutes on hold to find out they out source there claims enquiry to guadalahara mexico, and the operators accent is so bad i cannot understand them so after the third time saying"i'm sorry i dont understand " they transfer me to their supervisor, and there department is outsourced to the phillipines? double wtf ,Finally i get a apologie , i hang up and i call back the debt collection company to find out they outsource enquiries to india and they have no idea what i'm talking about AAAAARRRRRGGGGH FUCK OUT SOURCING.

Tags: i hate corporations
Current Location: in a major pissy mood
Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: anarchy in the uk by the sex pistols

 The story below has been proven legit it was featured on cnn.




CAMBODIAN boy Uorn Sambath, 7, has developed an amazing bond with his 5m, 100kg pet female python. He regularly sleeps within its massive coiled body.

Tags: go on mess with this kid
Current Location: all wrapped up
Current Mood: curious
Current Music: white snake

august 17th 2007 the mother of the woman i love, died of cancer she loved me more than my own mother ever did she was the woman who taught me to be myself. 
My question when does the searing tearing pain in my heart stop i miss her so so much i find myself crying at the drop of a hat.

Tags: i want my mom
Current Location: home
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: russian ballads

Hi readers, when my partner of ten years and i met we were travelling the world she came out as a lesbian during that time and i was her first love.
She had been away from home for almost  6  months so her best friend travelled to meet us for two weeks, my lady came out to her and asked that when she went  home (it would be three months before us) that (a) she not tell her parents about coming out. and (b) that i was goy not of the faith. the friend agreed.
 So three months later we arrive at jfk on christmas day in the middle of a snow storm ,to no reception, no lift and when she called she was disowned ! the friend had blabbed in fact could,nt wait.

Well fences were mended and my mother inlaw right up to her death last year was my best friend , but that does not undo the hurt and betrayal at the hands of a so called life long friend , that was done to my lady.

Fast forward to present day , We  found out last night the little bitch(who happens to be pakistani muslim, thats not why she's a bitch she just is) has been travelling the world for two years, has  become a nudist and is marrying a non muslim in the carribean this weekend on the beach, THE BRIDE THE GROOM AND ALL THE WEDDING PARTY AND INVITED GUESTS WILL BE NUDE!!! what a good little hypocrit.
 Now i don't care what she does, who she marries but she hasn''t told her parents they think she is at university in paris living a good muslim life.

I think it is my right to tell her parents and get a little payback for  the the three years of hell her mouth caused us,  my partner says leave it alone . what should i do we were homeless at one time because of her. please help

Tags: i want to nail the bitch
Current Location: in a quandry
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: respect

MOVERS NOT SHAKERS are a removals and shipping company based in brooklyn newyork that advertises exsclusively in the gay community and has ads in metrosource, newyork press, and village voice. 
They make 99% of their profit amongst us , heres the problem recently a dyke couple friends of mine, used them to move house , they get paid only once amonth on the 15th the manager said "not aproblem give me a post dated cheque and i'll cash it then , they did he did ,all was happy . Three months later one of them bumped into the manager and said "thanks we have a exspensive antique that was bequeathed to us, on the 15th we will get you to move it "he replied "you're good people give me another cheque for the 15th and we'll do it monday" she said to him "mom just passed away i used a lot of money on final exspenses if you cash this before the 15th my rent cheque will bounce" he assured her there would not be aproblem .they moved the antique and you guessed it cashed the cheque ten days early. 
when called the company replied IT'S BAD ENOUGH HAVING TO DEAL WITH YOU FUCKING FAGGOTS NOW YOU FUCKING COMPLAIN ,AND THEN CALLED HER BOSS BECAUSE SHE WORKS FOR A MAGAZINE AND SHE WAS ALMOST FIRED BECAUSE SHE DARED ASK WHY HE CASHED THE CHEQUE EARLY.
 THIS  ASSHOLE COMPANY TAKES OUR MONEY, LIES TO US AND THEN CALLS US SCUM BEHIND OUR BACK PLEASE BOYCOTT THEM IN NYC AND JERSEY

Tags: if they can't support us dont support th
Current Location: in astate of amazement
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: none

Can anyone tell me if this is normal I was advised to use a multivitamin so my partner spent over a hour asking for a diabetic friendly one , she chose.
 I took my first dose and a few minutes later being very bored i read the ingredients, and wtf it said "contains depending on supply dried hake or flake or cod "!!!!
 a vegetarian cannot even trust their multi vitamin without carnivores slipping meat in. 
can somebody tell me if all multivitamins have fish in it?

Tags: multi vitamin or dead animal?
Current Location: puking up my multivitamin
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: sweet little pill

Well folks ,i have not been a member for very long , my first day i got into a discussion about the NRA and because i believe in democray and the right of free speech i backed down.
But as of 9.30am this morning 32 are dead and more than 30 critically wounded , the monster that did this did not baseball pitch the bullets he used a gun. The NRA and all other gun associations can put all there reasons up against me but if that monster did not have the right to bear arms then 32 sets of parents could still wrap their loving arms around their child tonight!. 
No parent should ever out live their children ,to the parents of the 32 deceased let the NRA explain why their babies are not home safe in thier beds tonight because the only reason i can come up with is someone who had no practical use to own a fully automatic weapon was able to do so because groups like the NRA exist. YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND BUT I SAY YES PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE BUT FUCK GUNS MAKE IT EASIER.

Tags: no guns = no gun rampage
Current Location: in a state of disgust
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: I don't like mondays

Hi i'm originally from south of the equator, but i have since crossed that line more times than i care to admit. If i'm, to keep up the illusion of my true age.  I at the behest of my loved one and others who at least pay lipservice to friendship, have tried to avoid the net, but as much as I try to believe their cries they are not trans so in some part at least they can never truly understand what i go through now and & for the past 15 years.

I'm looking for friends with open ears and hearts but who hate judgement without the facts as much as I do. 

So Hi,

Namaste and welcome.

Tags: anyone for a play date?